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Alan’s Life Update at Age 25

Posted on May 25, 2014

Alan’s Life Update at Age 25

“For all my ways are before You.”

-Psalm 119:168b

When I was younger, I obsessed over the number 25. I’m not really sure how it started, but I just remember seeing it in a lot of important events in my life. Over the years I kind of forgot about it because I’m too skeptical to be superstitious…but I had always been curious about what would happen to me when I turned 25.

Now that I’m less than 2 months away from ending my journey through my 25th year, I thought I would just reflect on some things and talk about what’s next:

As I write this, I just came back from evangelizing with some of our high school students. I can’t stop thinking about this one group that we met. They were so engaged in what we were saying and were asking some really good, thoughtful questions.

What’s amazing to me is to watch this complete SHIFT in the mood of these conversations. It’ll start off with the group being reluctant to talk to us, laughing, joking and assuming we had some ulterior motive for chatting with them…and then all of a sudden…there will be this FOCUS; serious eye contact, interaction, and honesty between us all.

It is at this point that I realized that these kids have probably NEVER heard the good news of Jesus Christ explained to them.

How is this possible?!

After explaining the good news, I asked the group if they believed in God. One girl looked down and said shyly, “I didn’t, but I might now based on what you just said.” I’m thinking…”based on what I said? I didn’t say anything clever.” And this is the real point that needs to be constant reminder in my life: It is the power of God’s Word that changes lives. It isn’t our cleverness, or our wit, or whatever else.

“And I, brethren, when I came to you, did not come with excellence of speech or of wisdom declaring to you the testimony of God. For I determined not to know anything among you except Jesus Christ and Him crucified. I was with you in weakness, in fear, and in much trembling. And my speech and my preaching were not with persuasive words of human wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.” -1 Corinthians 2:1-5

Oh BOY, that passage gives me SUCH great comfort. It’s only recently that I’ve been able to stop feeling nervous while doing announcements at church!

I am so fascinated by what God has done with my life so far. I look in the mirror and I still see the little boy who was afraid to sleep at night with the lights off. It feels like just yesterday I was afraid of heights, afraid of the rapture, afraid of escalators, afraid of being alone…

I love this verse:

“We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.” -2 Corinthians 4:7

It is the power of God that enables weak, talentless, fearful people like you and I to be like Gideon: a “mighty man of valor”

I definitely don’t feel like a mighty man of valor. I still feel like a wimp most days.

But that’s why I think it’s so important to put myself in situations where I am desperate for God’s help.

Remember when Peter saw Jesus walking on water? He asked Jesus to command him to come out to him on the water. Peter put himself in a situation where he had to rely solely on the Lord. He wasn’t able to walk on water in his own strength. Good news for us, even though he took his eyes off Jesus, Jesus was still there to pick him up when he fell.

So what do we have to lose? When we are faithless He remains faithful!!

Why not take a step of faith; a leap in the dark and see how God uses you?

How can we show the world that we worship a God of miracles if we:

  • always rely on our own strength,
  • always act in a predictable and calculated manner,
  • never give the Holy Spirit room to do miracles?

Now, I’m not saying to take a risk just for the sake of taking risks…

This is about stepping out when God is calling us.

In other words,

Don’t let your comfort zone become your coffin.

Jesus said,

“The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few.” -Matthew 9:37b

I’m just thinking…If the good Samaritan couldn’t pass by the man who was wounded on the road,

  • Can I afford to go to sleep at night without spending time in prayer, when there’s a lost girl somewhere who can’t sleep because she feels completely hopeless?
  • Can I neglect my time in the Word when there are people who need the message of healing?
  • Can we afford to sit back and complain about our lives when there are people out there that have never heard the gospel and have no idea where they will go when they die?
  • Could I let myself slip in self-centeredness and give the enemy a foot in the door by focusing on my needs when there are people in the world who need God?

“By faith Moses, when he became of age, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin, esteeming the reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures in Egypt; for he looked to the reward.” Hebrews 11:24-26

So then, what next?

Well. I’m going to use what I got. I like to make music, I like to climb rocks, I love teaching the Word. I have fun thinking of creative ways to get the gospel out. I’m going to (God willing!) try to use my resources and abilities as much as possible to get people’s eyes focused on Jesus.

So right now I am:

  • Disciplining myself by training for climbing, doing all things with excellence and learning about the parallels between physical fitness and spiritual fitness.
  • Writing music to release my next album for Fall 2014, hence this website.
  • Reading more books
  • Trying to talk less about myself when around others, and focus on how I can be a blessing to other people.
  • Recognizing I need to read more and pray more!!
  • Trying to make the main thing of my life just be the sweetness and joy of having Jesus in my life.

“A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” -Prov 16.9

I want to be spirit-led now more than ever. Time is so short!!

If the Lord doesn’t want me to release this album, so be it. If He wants His Word to go out without any of my creative ideas, praise God! If He wants to humble me by letting my finger injuries take a little bit longer to heal, blessed be the name of the Lord!

I just don’t want to sit on my posterior; I want to actively wait for the Lord and allow Him to close doors in my life rather than sit and do nothing. The Bible says to “Trust in the Lord, and do good” -Psalm 37:3a

I have learned SO much this year…and I hope that the thing I continue to learn above all else, is about the love of the Lord. THAT will be my driving motivation. Please Lord help me will and to do for Your good pleasure in Jesus name, Amen. 🙂


P.S. To hear a new song off the album, “Time Machine” go back to the home page.

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